Broken and somehow peaceful.

Our family received some sad news yesterday that my Nana (my mom's mom) has several tumors in her brain. It has all happened very quickly. Please intercede with prayer on her behalf.


I borrowed a CD from the library. The Other Side of Something by Sara Groves. One song stays in my head today.

WHAT I THOUGHT I WANTED.
Tuxedo in the closet, gold band in a box / Two days from the altar she went and called the whole thing off / What he thought he wanted, what he got instead / Leaves him broken yet grateful // I passed understanding a long, long time ago / And the simple home of systems and answers we all know / What I thought I wanted, what I got instead / Leaves me broken and somehow peaceful // I keep wanting you to be fair / But that's not what you said / I want certain answers to these prayers / But that's not what you said // When I get to heaven I wanna go find Job / I want to ask a few hard questions, I wanna know what he knows / About what it is he wanted and what he got instead / How to be broken yet faithful // What I thought I wanted...// Staring in the water like Aesop's foolish dog / I can't help but reflect on what it was I almost lost / What I thought I wanted, what I got instead / Leaves me broken and grateful / I'm broken and grateful / I want to be grateful, peaceful, thankful, faithful, grateful....